How much I want to forget that face, that eyes, that mouth, that hair and that skin.
I want to forget all of Roger man and focus only on the tennis player but I can’t…
I saw him so close and now all is so more difficult…Before it was only an imagination and now I know how is he really - so much more beautiful, charmig, sensual, irresistible and hurting becase forbiden and impossible.
He was posossible only in the fantasies but now they are only a pale copy of the reality and the’re not enough and what would be enough neve could be.
WHY all this?!?…why I was and I’m so stupid?